what do i want

does it matter where i start

or where i want to go.?

one day my milestones will be behind me and i will have fewer tomorrows than yesterdays. 

so what do i want now. am i going to be scared to ask for it? am i going to even know how to ask for it. most importantly, DO i know what to ask for.

memories. how do you record them. how do u maintain them. why do i feel that they are important and need to be preserved. is it to remember the yesterdays bygone. attachment. healthy or not.

what do i want? is that the right question? what do i want to give and who do i want to be. is that better. is that a socially desirable answer. 

i want to be socially and personally conscious and not get complacent. ok. so i can be that. I hope i am that.

now.. why do i even need to think about asking for what i want.. when i can give it to myself. i donot need anything from anyone other than me. 

now there.