Varanasi. That word pretty much encompases all I have to say about her.
I am being everything I feel and think. This journey is harder than I thought. Returning to India for my reasons is like going to the farmer's market- so much to see and so many distractions before you reach the table you really came to buy from! But.. BUT... I had a cool moment yesterday night- I got angry. A not so familiar feeling in the last little while- say 30 years! The intensity of my anger, lets put it that way, blew me away. It lasted 10 minutes, but it suprised me. It is so easy to get caught up in the place with new stimulii, new experiences with old friends, hawkers, peddlers... and yet my internal struggle found a way to get out and grab my attention. hmmm
I am happy. that I can still feel it all. the anger and the child like gaeity.
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I don't actually know what your reasons for returning to India are. I assumed job or school, but only because those are the common reasons for a long stay in such a place--unless one is in search of a guru or a cheap operation (both of which took people of my acquaintance there).
It's about time you got angry!
dva
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